Ptown

Ok so its about this time of year....each year....that I miss ptown.

I know I havent been there much - but I want to go and I want to go now!

Maybe its the snow that makes me yearn for the warmer weather....and the beach....


Perhaps I have this rosie view of ptown, like I do of most vacation spots. Yet still thinking about it Ive never had a really really good experience in ptown. First time there was with my parents when I was 14. Then with my best friend in high school. Both of these first 2 visit were pre-coming-out. Next was the summer before last....an overnight stay with Kelly...which ended in a fight. Then an overnight stay with P. That one didnt end up in a fight...but in a 4 hour traffic trip home - through which I had to pee and met K at the apartment right after I got home. Last ptown trip was this past summer with K. While there we invited my ex JP and his current girlfriend to come spend a few days with us (weird I know but that part was actually fun). K was in a pissy mood that whole last trip so it wasnt really fun for me.

all in all Im not really sure why I want to go to ptown so bad all of a sudden....I just know that I do.

Thanksgiving

I remember when thanksgiving was at my house
and my sister was the youngest one there

I would come down in my pjs
eat my dinner then hide upstairs in my room again

Dinner was quiet
almost to the point of being uncomfortable

My mom put out the good china
the kind that cant go in the dishwasher when dinner is done

Years have passed
and quiet thanksgivings are no more

My cousins have had kids
as seems to be the way things grow and change