Lianna

Ok so first off...this movie was made the same year I was born....actually the movie is older than I am by 3 months. Second off it was directed by a man - whats up with that?! Ill give you I was watching this movie at 2am on showtime but it really didnt hold my attention. The plot was awful - married woman having problems in her marriage with a man who cheats on her - woman finds college professor who hits on her and turns her gay - woman leaves husband and two children to move in with new lover (she didnt discuss that with her before she did it by the way) - new lover says no - finds out new lover has a partner someplace else and that new lover was looking for an affair with a married woman (didnt you know all lesbians are preditors looking to break up marriages and turn happily heterosexual women gay?). Yep awful. THEN at one point she went into a gay bar (in a college town I mind you) and let me list you off the unrealism that this guy directed into his film - 1. there were about 20 people there 2. there were no butchy women 3. not one mullet in sight and 4. all the woman were in their late 20's to early 30's. Yeeeah I may not have been born then but gay bars can not have changed that much in the last 25 yrs. Anywho - my vote is two thumbs down - not worth the time or brain cells to watch this movie...it was a bit interesting to see lesbians in the 80's portrayed by a man....but still not worth watching the movie.

The incredibly true adventure of 2 girls in love

All I can say is .... Ohh Laurel Holloman.... your voice is too girly to play a little butch. It was a campy but cute movie that made me wonder if lesbian families are really like hers. It was definately a movie worth seeing but it was a bit outdated (it was made it 1995). The other thing about this movie that spoke to me was the "forbidden love". It really gave me flash backs from my childhood.

Do you want to date me?

If you do....here is the list of requirements

1) you must bite your nails

2) you must hate seafood

3) you must be able to cook

4) you must be emotionally unavailable in some way shape or form


yup - thats been my last 3 relationships....fun fun

Judy Francesconi

This is what I aspire to do. To take pictures like this.

How beautiful is the symmetry...the lighting....the curves....It looks peaceful, comfortable, inviting....

I really am a lesbian - how can anyone look at this and not appreciate how beautiful a naked woman is?

If you get a chance go visit this womans website http://judyfrancesconi.com her photos are so amazing....

Moving

Ok so Im freaking out about moving.

I got an apartment with my (now ex) boyfriend about 3 years ago. In that 3 years we moved once...and it was just 2 buildings down in the same apartment complex. Now Ive come to the end of my lease. He moved out in November and K moved in. Well K moved out on me after 2 weeks leaving me to pick up the entire rent on my own (its a 2 bedroom in Norwood....its about $1500 a month). Well thankfully (or not) my lease is up on March 1st and I have to move - but my god I dont want to. Im terrified.

My last ex messed my credit up by opening cards in my name and not paying any of the bills she said she was. Now I dont even know if my credits good enough to get an apartment on my own. I cant trust K enough to move in with her and trust that she will stick around to pay the bills...but she dosent want me to get a roommate. At this point its about doing whats right for me so my choices are this.
1) get a one bedroom apartment I can afford on my own if K flakes
2) get a 2 bedroom and a roommate
3) stay where I am and stuggle but know that I have a place to live.

I dont know what to do.

H E L P!!!

So I dont know what to do....

I went out with J yesterday to the movies....and I have to say that I still really want her. I told her K has sorta moved back in and her demeanor changed.

I sent her this a while after she dropped me off

S 2/7/2008 3:45pm - Your demeanor seemed to change when i told u K was staying with me for a bit...was that just me hoping to see that or was i right?
J 2/7/2008 4:23 - Hmmm - plede 5th
S 2/7/2008 4:43pm - Please tell me
J 2/7/2008 4:45 - No if u are happy i am so happy - and if u are not done then you need to follow that path
S 2/7/2008 4:46 pm - If u had said...lets date i would send K home in a heartbeat
J 2/7/2008 4:50 pm - Both of us cant do that right now
S 2/7/2008 4:51 pm - Y cant u?
J 2/7/2008 4:52 pm - U know
S 2/7/2008 4:52 pm - P?
J 2/7/2008 4:56 pm - & h & k & kr & california

Puccini for Beginners

Ok so I just saw this movie....what a let down. It was ok but dont start watching it with any big expectations. It was predictable and slow moving in the begining and I really didnt like the main character - I found her dry and not personable. Ah well.... another strike for lesbian movies.

Saving Face

Ok so I just want everyone to go out and watch the movie Saving Face. Its the best combination of an asian and lesbian movie EVER.

Anyway J txt messaged me today to see if I wanted to go to the movies with her tomorrow. I made a pact with myself that I wouldnt ask her to hang out with me again - shes got to ask me. Its time for her to prove that she actually wants to spend time with me.

Also Im so sick I feel like I want to die. Ive been getting body aches and chills so bad I have to take a bath just to warm up....then I get so hot I strip down to a tee shirt. Because of that constant push and pull last night I didnt get much sleep - plus I had to be in work for 7:30am to let the trainer into our building. So today (being sick and all) should be a wonderful ten and a half hour day. I hate being sick.

pain in the foot?

Ok my foot hurts so bad today that Im limping around....I look like a moron but oh well

K semi moved back in - she moved the kittens and her cat in today (arent they cute?). I guess that effectivly ends anything I may have had with J.

P is acting crazy I guess and is sabotaging any chance she gets with women she talks to. great. I just dont want to be around her right now.


So I got written up for my sales for last month. fantastic. I now have to hit my sales goals for the next 3 months or I could be fired. Not that this job is stressful at all or anything.

I think Ive decided I want to start taking classes. I was looking at New England School of Photography (http://www.nesop.com/). I wonder if Ill be any good at it.


I know Im just one great big ray of sunshine today arent I?

Her addiction vs mine

Her addiction is drugs - crack/cocaine
My addiction is her


Which is worse? Im not really sure.


She wants help this time....but what can I do?
I need help this time....but what can I do?


K - why cant I walk away from her. Everytime I think I have I get sucked back in. Is this what being IN love is like?

So far since coming out last year Ive dated a woman who hit me (yes restraining order was involved...that was a fun trip into white-trash-ville), a woman who was kind but controlling and I wasnt attracted to her, and a drug addict. Is this what being gay is all about? because if so I think Ill go back to the safety of hetero-ville.

Why do I always hope for a movie ending?

So I was starting to fall for K again....I know....stupid. She was acting so different and I really thought she had changed but cycles repeat and here I am again.

I cant take her back again....I wont let myself. I have to get over her.

Yesterday I let her borrow my car so that she could go get her check from the post office. She was supposed to bring my car back at 3 - which then became 4 - which then became 6 - which became never. She called me at 7:45 and told me I could pick the car up in lawrence again. Im so all done.

I called her this morning crying and she didnt answer. Im so sick of the lies and hurt.

Now I got this from her:
K 2/2/2008 12:10 pm - I love you with all my heart. You felt it the other night. I need help everytime i think i can walk away i get pulled back in i am sorry steph
S 2/5/2008 12:36 p, - Did you do drugs last night?
K 2/2/2008 12:48 pm - If you want to pick up your phone you can. Dont shut it and go through the trouble i will give it to you. And the answer is yes i cant control it. Im calling around today to get admitted somewhere. I do love you and im sorry i fucked up again. Take care babe. Let me know when your coming. Its a wonder why i have no one. Anyway. Im trying to charge the phone its dead. Call you in an hour to find out when your coming. Hope you dont mind im going to use the phone to make those calls.